Please, Lord, teach it to my heart and make me passionate for the real thing.
It’s my strengthening prayer as we move closer to a life-change where someone might actually ask me to give a reason “for the hope that is in me.”
I’m chicken-Christian, no doubt about it.
That whole older-brother (sister) thing is really frustrating. There’s a verse in the Bible that says that she who is forgiven much, loves much. Dang it. I have lived my life in the whitewashed area of the planet / country / city / family, and deep forgiveness is startlingly hard to grasp. How prideful is that? Just being honest here…please withhold judgment unless you are a deeply forgiven whitewashed something or other.
Yesterday morning, we went running (jogging / walking / whatever). Doug and I weren’t talking about deep heart things, but he made a terribly insightful comment that went to my core. “When someone lies, they are creating an alternate reality for the other person to live in. So, the other person is living by the rules of a reality that is not true.”
Whoa. Satan is the father of lies. I’ve always tended to think of those lies as one-off, temptation-laden, whispery, “eat the apple” kind of lies. As I considered Doug’s comment, I realized that Satan’s big scheme is creating whole, complete, big-time false realities for us to inhabit. We’re not usually living in them thinking, “Oh, I know this is a lie, but it feels good, so I’ll continue.” We’re in there thinking, “This is it. This is the real deal. I’ve got to go all out here because it’s the honest framework of life, and I’m here to live it.” We’re stuck in a whole reality that is not true. You know, The Matrix. He’s a liar.
Romans 2:14 says the kindness of God leads me to repentance. Jesus said, “Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand.” (At hand. Right here. Look up. Within the veil.) It is precious to me to think that God’s kindness in Christ draws me into the light. He brings me into Truth so that the framework of lies I’ve lived under is exposed as worthless and pointless. He turns my heart toward His grace so that I can live on the other side of deception. Live freely in the real Truth. When His kindness leads me there, when I repent of believing a framework of lies, when He opens the door to a new way, through grace, then I find I am forgiven much. Then I begin to love much. Then the gospel is His fountain in my heart.
Thank you, Lord, for your kindness that gives us hinds feet for the high places. For showing us what’s real. For altering our reality toward Truth. For Your Jesus.